Rats

A fucking rat

Gifted from six of your seven

Seas

You hit the evening breeze with the faint smell of death

To put your simple mind at E Z E

Ahhh

Enough to bite 

Enough to chew

Ripping right through enough to 

Fill your fucking bones

Enough to want a little

More

Oh the decadence

You once enjoyed the fruits off

Some other mans back

Some other man was eating rats

But now youre the man

Filling the score

Wanting for more

Being the whore

And watching him waste the core

Rats

Gifted from six of your seven senses

But the seventh demon neglected to mention

The instrument

Ready the prize for all your effort

Steady your eyes for all thats left

Its a ready disease 

Plaguing you with E Z E

Ripened fable

Gracing yourself with

Crooks & killers and scamps

And monsters and zombies and

Ants and vultures and demons and

Cramps and losers and lamps 

And villains and rats and wrath and

Rats and

rats and

rats and

rats and

RATS!!!

Brick as you

You are just a fucking

Cunt

Your useless wastage

Boring my system with your accolades 

Again with this tyrade

At most you have my apathy

Youve bluntened your edges

Your soggy & sour scent

Burning my nostrils

With feted & foul stench

Can i just dance over until i find your grave

I want to be the one that

Kicks you in your

Caveing in your ribs &

Burdening your brain with my

Toes smoshing in your grey

You dont matter

You are just a useless fucking

Affront 

to my goddamn senses

You are the bludgeoning hole of

Gurgling blood from useless bones and

Scoured teeth broken

Like dog snot in the sun

Wetting your chest with irony and filth

It takes all of me to come along & pet

Your little head with pure distain

And sordid soul you dont deserve

Mingling with the mongrel that you are

Vomiting your face out of your

Dirty corpse & loathsome skin

Filthying my feet to crush in your

Useless bones and every irony

That a brick like you could continue to live

Without being stomped is beyond me.

February

Another year inside this crushing rib cage

Crib cage

Another wonder ruined 

Another wonder dry

That taste in your mouth

The chalk of grinding teeth

Swallowing back snot

Stifling inner voice

Reminding you that no ones there

The empty chair

Stained from the last now left bleeding

Heart pumping fluid to nowhere

Blackened crust

Crushed coal 

Ache-ed soul

Didnt need it anyway

Cradling that last modicum of care

Like if it flickers out

The lighthouse will never be found again

In the light youll never share

Brittle bones of air

Speckle through your once attach-ed heart

Like an artist prying placing digging

The design carved into glass past

The war will remain open 

Coveted to remember the age when

Yes you did dance

Wonderment and chance bent slightly

Overflowing like you thought it would till bone dry crackles on

Heavy & floundering

Made to walk again the streets

Once you knew so well and

Empty full of strangers

Jostling the moonlight stare

Blankly by 

Straight inside you to the spot

Buried deep in the wall

Crusting over like the eyes of infection

Weeping like the oozing sores you badly puttied over hoping to hide

But you know its there

You know its there

You peel back the layers of wallpaper

But see through every paisley page

Darkest Day

Isnt it strange how it all works out
When you finally get there.
Isnt it weird how it all comes about?
Never thought you'd be here.

After all the things you've planned
Not a one came true.
And of all the things Ive regreted
Whys it have to be you?

Ive always been the one
Whos always been in love.
Ive never been the one
where you ever tried
You'd never survive me
On your darkest day on earth.

Isnt it strange when you finally go numb
& you dont really care.
Isnt it weird when your doing something
Feeling like youre not there.

After all the things you planned
That you never did do.
& of all the things you've regreted
It was the losing of you.

Ive always been the one
Whos always been in love.
Ive never been the one
where you ever tried
You'd never survive me
On your darkest day on earth.

(02/01/2000)

Game

Youre so purdy
It makes me SICK!
your eyes are fire
And you make me ITCH!

Come now!
Push me further
Push me further away
Come now!
Push me further
Push me further away

Tear me up with a smile on your face
Whats the point if it isnt so sweet
Lead me along ill play the game
Im the one whos always left in peices

Make me carry this burden longer.
Lets be self destructive
I mean feel empowered
Mistake weakness for kindness

Get the fuck outta my face, love!

Phantasmagoria

I was living on my own
I was scared out of my skin
I looked into your eyes
My nightmares now begin.

I feel its presence - Icy fingers on my throat
I hear its eerie sounds - Unsettling my every thought
I try in vain to slumber, my reveries gripped by my terror
Something... Is very, very wrong here.

I hear your voice beckoning me to your rope
I smell your smell, & then I lose my every hope
I try to sleep without the fear of fear
Something... Is very, very wrong here.

I used to see your face along mirrors & walls
I used to hear your steps walking along my corridors
I try to shut my eyes, dreaming endless pain in sleep.
My only salvation the shock of waking up

Something is wrong here, something very very wrong
There is no dial tone apon my telephone
The door wont open, its probably only in my head
Thats what the last girl thought but now that girl is dead.

I was living on my own
I was scared out of my skin
I looked into your eyes
Your nightmares now begin.

Bookshop's Closed

Music drips from my head
Yes we're here again (here again)
A petty waste of space.

Open me up but my bookshop is closed.
It has been a while -
Dont touch me Im faded, Im jaded.

Is it too late? I tumble like a corkscrew
Through the pages
through the ages
And i would never realise if I never opened my eyes again
Im a lost one.
Lost all over again
Tumble through, just tumble through me.
Let it wash through again.

Like the tracks of time
Trains on a tyrade & you are played
& I am voided - destroyed.
And the pages burn the ages
& the book is gone.

All I have left is this bottle & my tears
& the corner of a book I used to hold.

Twice

You never thought it would happen to you
& now it has, you dont know what to do.
You walk alone along the streets at night
Never thinking twice

Why?

You never thought twice
That maybe things happen for a reason
You never thought twice
That maybe you werent the one for me.
I have other things to be.

You stumble like a child king
Down the promenade of your kingdom
Never thinking twice of how you were treating me
Is that the way it should be?

You never thought twice
That maybe things happen for a reason
You never thought twice
That maybe you werent the one for me.
I have other things to be.

Never thinking twice.

I am tragedy

Tonight I am a tragedy
Tomorrow I will rise & again be
The steel
The arm
The fight
Tomorrow...
I will black the sun.

Tonight though,
I am the victim again
My own callous vision - crimson in the night
epic veil of nothing permeates
Alone & lost
No longer looking or seeing
being or breathing
the rage winters behind.

Being

Cannot think, brain is mashed
Body broken, heart is smashed
Thoughts of fevers, shattered sould
Bound & broken & growing old.

Sitting here about to cry,
Single tear falls & dries
Im tired & in love with you
Tired of being in love with you

My hope is lost, you are gone
Doors are closed, blinds are drawn
Life is dark like my mind
No wonder I cant find... You

Sitting here about to cry,
Single tear falls & dries
Im tired & in love with you
Tired of being... Tired of being...

Dead Star

Dead Star
Arise to meet your maker.
My atoms avast like smooth
Ships from corners of an unknown space & time
In lace & love & time & china.

Broken & hopeless
Dripping white beauty
Blinder than I can see
I dare not mention the world, you.

Torn down in time
the passage of time sways
& the days keep faltering
the doors swing, clocks tock
I await the dead star

Baited breath the toll, tolls
Time windes back, stars relax
The cruel face of nothing turns
on the empty sails that burn
this ship will never sail from your command.

The bones white & bony
Last tune played slow & unknowing
Never smiles the smiles
she waves & dies
No sound she dances to the depths & knows all except

Dead Star
(Broken & Hopeless)
Dead Star
(Dripping white beauty)
Dead Star
(Blinder than I see)
Dead Star
I dare not mention