Monday, August 28, 2017

Cheap Heroin

Cheap Heroin

So many teeth
So many eyes
The skin is on
Smile through my disguise

Skull drips through shoulders
Fists plane through wood
Butcher the blade 
Pour & eek through my blood

(ch)
You're cheap heroin
Youre my medicine
Im drowning & 
Its never deep enough
The walls are closing in
Pleasure dissolved in sin
Clawing through my veins
Youre cheap heroin

(bridge)
You poison my brain
You march & derange about me
You wither my bones
You deliver me droned
Beat, lie & cheat
Break the ice underneath

(ch)
You're cheap heroin
Youre my medicine
Im drowning & 
Its never deep enough
The walls are closing in
Pleasure dissolved in sin
Clawing through my veins
Youre cheap heroin

So many teeth
So many bones
Sharpen your smile
& walk alone

Face drips through your teeth
Outside as empty as underneath
Binding your feet
Scaling the straits while you beat

(ch)
You're cheap heroin
Youre my medicine
Im drowning & 
Its never deep enough
The walls are closing in
Pleasure dissolved in sin
Clawing through my veins
Youre cheap heroin

(alt chorus) [higher octive]
Youre cheap heroin
Keep drawing me back in
I cant drown
& i need to make it stop
Walls are closing in
Dont know where i begin
Clawing through my veins
Like cheap heroin



Tequila Mockingbird

Tequila Mockingbird

You run like bleach
Stripped into my bones
Im breathing acid
& choking on chrome
Ill alway follow
Ive been dumb on your lead
Just a plaything
Thrown away when you seethe 

(chorus)
Tequila mockingbird
Down half a bottle & tell me what you need
Tequila mockingbird
Its not me. Its not me.
Tequila mockingbird
Down another bottle & tell me what you want
Tequila mockingbird
I want better. I need better than me.

Youre in my head
You mount the assault
Cant beat you out
Youre poison in my vault
Tearing off skin
Blood all over the floor
Broken spine
Still begging for more!

(bridge)
For all your skills,
You steel me in sulphur
Block all my calls
You like when i suffer
I make believe 
i could be the one
You tug the noose & say
You used to be so much fuuuuuuun...

Thanks to you 
my hearts still bleeding
Torn to ribbons 
Still broken and beating

Im in half a mind to make you bleed
You blindly push until i seethe
Im just living in a golden lie
Lying in your truths - i dont want to believe.

Lighter Karma

Lighter karma

Can i grab you by your 
Solar plexus
I want to whisper to the deepest you
Where you dont tread

Fear is holding you
Telling you not to ask the cheap veneer
What is behind the door
Fear of nothing you cant answer

Youve lost your light
Handed out at dirty bars
On cheap cigarettes
Youve lost your light
But curl your fingers in
Find the lighter karma

I want to dive in
Seep around your solar plexus
Slink the rib ladder and
Beat into your heart

Find where its broken and sew up the cracks
Sew it can seam less painful
See how you decorate the walls and
Straighten the paintings

Blind

I was trapped in darkness
All i could see was your light
A fog of lies trapping me
Your heart was never in sight

You are the world but not for me
The shine has gone from your eyes
And i can't tell if you even see me
And what was truth and what was lies

Im sorry that i couldnt be the thing you needed
Im sorry but i cant be something more
Im not sorry but now i shine like a shiny star
Im sorry that with together we couldnt be what we are

Keep thinking of those early days - how amazing
So perfect - i put you up on a pedestal
You had me - from hello till they burn the stars
But i guess till then I'll hide in the scars

Bridge
And then your firey eyes faded out
I could see you but you cant see me
And i was  without a light
Please see me. Please see me
But i didnt exist
Please see me, please see me
But now its over. 

You are the world but not for me
The shine has gone from your eyes
And you dont even see me
And was it all the lie you said?

You are the world but not for me
The shine has gone from your eyes
And i can't tell if you even see me
Maybe we'll get it right in the next life.


Dirt

Every time it happens
Every. Time.
Pinched skin back behind my ears
And crack my chest

Rope drawn mess
Following my undercarriage
Hoping to pull me inside
Out again.
And creeping bones
Like my smile
Subside after a turn
When the universe is solid

But now it is all
Squirrelling guts and
Drunken moons
Pouring another snifter of swoon

Delightful haze that blinds me
Delightful as it my be
I would rather you leave me full than
Jangle my bones in the dirt again.

Repeat

I am already lost
Beyond lost
In something beautiful with you

And up flies the walls
Pulling closer
Flicks away - 
Where are my manners? 

Dont you know
I pulled down my cloak so
You dont have to jump in
Puddles
With me?

Who would forgive me
Trying to scale walls
All i want 
Is 
A glimpse of you

I lie there all the same, following
Streams of matter
I have watched it happen already
Moments locked in slides
Of the universe
Repeating for years
Waiting to be lived in flesh
Not viewed like paintings


Empty Overflow

Peer through
Youd never know that behind the paintings
Hangs the reality

Pouring out through
Swirling paint drips
Trying to lick the spit through the window
So you can smell it
Taste it
Recognise the same horse behind the mirror

And shaping like a moon
You settle into the warm golden glow of the night
Arked into its smile

Looks across the yard to see
The spewing mess that overtalks
Grooming your view

Assured behind duck bills the
Guts and whinneys of 
The self despaired 

The eight burns
And you are too busy
To notice

Full with nothing
Empty overflowing
Forgot to dig your toes well into the dirt

Such a hindrance.
Your bones are showing
But your soul is kept behind the shards.