Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Darkest Day

Isnt it strange how it all works out
When you finally get there.
Isnt it weird how it all comes about?
Never thought you'd be here.

After all the things you've planned
Not a one came true.
And of all the things Ive regreted
Whys it have to be you?

Ive always been the one
Whos always been in love.
Ive never been the one
where you ever tried
You'd never survive me
On your darkest day on earth.

Isnt it strange when you finally go numb
& you dont really care.
Isnt it weird when your doing something
Feeling like youre not there.

After all the things you planned
That you never did do.
& of all the things you've regreted
It was the losing of you.

Ive always been the one
Whos always been in love.
Ive never been the one
where you ever tried
You'd never survive me
On your darkest day on earth.

(02/01/2000)

Friday, September 9, 2011

Game

Youre so purdy
It makes me SICK!
your eyes are fire
And you make me ITCH!

Come now!
Push me further
Push me further away
Come now!
Push me further
Push me further away

Tear me up with a smile on your face
Whats the point if it isnt so sweet
Lead me along ill play the game
Im the one whos always left in peices

Make me carry this burden longer.
Lets be self destructive
I mean feel empowered
Mistake weakness for kindness

Get the fuck outta my face, love!

Phantasmagoria

I was living on my own
I was scared out of my skin
I looked into your eyes
My nightmares now begin.

I feel its presence - Icy fingers on my throat
I hear its eerie sounds - Unsettling my every thought
I try in vain to slumber, my reveries gripped by my terror
Something... Is very, very wrong here.

I hear your voice beckoning me to your rope
I smell your smell, & then I lose my every hope
I try to sleep without the fear of fear
Something... Is very, very wrong here.

I used to see your face along mirrors & walls
I used to hear your steps walking along my corridors
I try to shut my eyes, dreaming endless pain in sleep.
My only salvation the shock of waking up

Something is wrong here, something very very wrong
There is no dial tone apon my telephone
The door wont open, its probably only in my head
Thats what the last girl thought but now that girl is dead.

I was living on my own
I was scared out of my skin
I looked into your eyes
Your nightmares now begin.

Bookshop's Closed

Music drips from my head
Yes we're here again (here again)
A petty waste of space.

Open me up but my bookshop is closed.
It has been a while -
Dont touch me Im faded, Im jaded.

Is it too late? I tumble like a corkscrew
Through the pages
through the ages
And i would never realise if I never opened my eyes again
Im a lost one.
Lost all over again
Tumble through, just tumble through me.
Let it wash through again.

Like the tracks of time
Trains on a tyrade & you are played
& I am voided - destroyed.
And the pages burn the ages
& the book is gone.

All I have left is this bottle & my tears
& the corner of a book I used to hold.

Twice

You never thought it would happen to you
& now it has, you dont know what to do.
You walk alone along the streets at night
Never thinking twice

Why?

You never thought twice
That maybe things happen for a reason
You never thought twice
That maybe you werent the one for me.
I have other things to be.

You stumble like a child king
Down the promenade of your kingdom
Never thinking twice of how you were treating me
Is that the way it should be?

You never thought twice
That maybe things happen for a reason
You never thought twice
That maybe you werent the one for me.
I have other things to be.

Never thinking twice.

I am tragedy

Tonight I am a tragedy
Tomorrow I will rise & again be
The steel
The arm
The fight
Tomorrow...
I will black the sun.

Tonight though,
I am the victim again
My own callous vision - crimson in the night
epic veil of nothing permeates
Alone & lost
No longer looking or seeing
being or breathing
the rage winters behind.

Being

Cannot think, brain is mashed
Body broken, heart is smashed
Thoughts of fevers, shattered sould
Bound & broken & growing old.

Sitting here about to cry,
Single tear falls & dries
Im tired & in love with you
Tired of being in love with you

My hope is lost, you are gone
Doors are closed, blinds are drawn
Life is dark like my mind
No wonder I cant find... You

Sitting here about to cry,
Single tear falls & dries
Im tired & in love with you
Tired of being... Tired of being...

Fingers

I Hate my fingers.
Untouching. unfeeling. Frantic.
Panic my soul,
If I cant have one taste
Why must I watch you?

Clouding my moments
My sleep & my wake.
My fingers dance cold & alone
Along the keys of my faded memories.

Wasted. Putrid.
Tell me what am I good for.
Empty. Useless.
If I cant breathe you in.

Clouding my moments
My sleep & my wake.
My fingers dance cold & alone
Along the keys of my faded memories.

I hate my fingers
Reliant. Defiant & silent.
Quiet & froze
They recoil in vain
Like a bird in the rain
Why must I remain

Clouding my moments
My sleep & my wake.
My fingers dance cold & alone
Along the keys of my favorite memories.

Dead Star

Dead Star
Arise to meet your maker.
My atoms avast like smooth
Ships from corners of an unknown space & time
In lace & love & time & china.

Broken & hopeless
Dripping white beauty
Blinder than I can see
I dare not mention the world, you.

Torn down in time
the passage of time sways
& the days keep faltering
the doors swing, clocks tock
I await the dead star

Baited breath the toll, tolls
Time windes back, stars relax
The cruel face of nothing turns
on the empty sails that burn
this ship will never sail from your command.

The bones white & bony
Last tune played slow & unknowing
Never smiles the smiles
she waves & dies
No sound she dances to the depths & knows all except

Dead Star
(Broken & Hopeless)
Dead Star
(Dripping white beauty)
Dead Star
(Blinder than I see)
Dead Star
I dare not mention