The demon

Im locked in here

With you

You

Ill never escape if i run

Ill die

And here youll be

Haunting me

Running your nails along the walls of my mind. 

What im most afraid of?

the demon that haunts my nightmares

Nothing out there comes close

I parade my own private horrors

in here with you

To think i always tell you

To think id listen still after all these years of lies

I cant silence your tiny tinny voice

Reminding me what i am

You tell me

Remind me

Im the horror

That fucking miserable child

I try forget

Years blocked from my mind

People who pretend

Yes, i thought i was your friend

And all the while

Laughing

With a smile. I dont need you

But maybe i do.

I hate that you fuel it and im in here

Wasting thoughts on you

The omnipotent nightmare

I scream but there is no hiding

I drown you i drown you

I DROWN YOU

I DROWN YOU!!! 

But steady

Your voice i can still hear it banging

Away

On and on

Tearing at my skin like an animal

Picking at my bones

Looking through me & seeing

Reminding me

Blinding me

Misery

Here i lie

And not a word to raise me from this crushing fate

I could run another 1600 miles and

Still here

You would be here

The fate i cant escape

Eyes i cant help but look in

The nightmare i cant be free

The demon

Swallowing my soul

My heart

My pride

Is me.